Day 4: Ways to win my heart...

I'm actually cringing about this post slightly if I'm honest because thinking about it, it is a bit cheesy. I find it difficult to write about something when I'm not especially wanting anyone to win my heart these days. I'm quite happy as I am for the most part :)

• Cook a really good meal – preferably involving salmon of some kind! Fish pie, salmon steak, cheesy pasta bake with peas and salmon, nomanomanom!!
• Listen to me. Sometimes you feel like you’re on a date and they’re just bombarding you with everything about their lives and that you can’t get a word in edgeways. Also, when I say I’m not interested, I’m very sorry but that’s what I mean. I don’t mean that in a few months I might change my mind. I really hate the thought of leading someone on.
• Let me listen. I really miss someone telling me the simple things like how their day’s been, what worries them, a stupid thing that happened or a good film they saw. Don’t be a piece of furniture! Talk to me, but don’t over dominate.
• Be patient with me. I worry a lot, and often overthink things. For everyone who has put up with me – thankyou, I know it can make being around me a royal pain in the bum.
• Be yourself. Massive cliché, but if you can make stupid faces and do daft impressions of people in front of me on a wander round Leeds, then it will win you more points with me than taking me out for a fancy meal. I’m not really used to the proper ‘dating’ thing if I’m truly honest.

Thanks for bearing with me through the rollercoaster of cliches and cheesiness, but I suppose I have to have a sprinkling of typical posts among the ones I've tried to make more interesting!

Oh and I love it when the other person smiles while kissing you.

Ok that's it for this evening :)

Day 3: It's Jess!

Ok so I took a day off... I was working all day then I went out for a few drinks. Saturday was my day of blogging rest!

Right, I have to say that the TV character that reminds me most of myself is Jess from New Girl.

Probably because she’s absolutely nuts, and is a teacher, which is what I want to do. She’s very eccentric and whilst she is considerably weirder than I am, sometimes the things that she does, or what she worries about are the same things as mine.

My interior monologue is a bit like her life, except she actually does the things I think about doing! She’s also whilst very embarrassing, very likable and I’d like to think that for all the stupid things I’ve done/do that most people like me too!

I’d actually love to go on holiday inside her mind for the day, even if she is a fictional character.

Day 2: Tuuunes!

So day 2 and the subject is my 3 favourite songs. This was a lot harder to do than I imagined because obviously I know thousands of songs, may of which are amazing as they remind me of times, places and people and are generally good songs. But these songs are my favourite of the moment so you'll just have to make do with what's here:

• The Chain by Fleetwood Mac. I love this song for various reasons. Firstly because it reminds me of being a child as my Dad used to play this song, secondly because it is just a good song that builds up and up and they don't really make music anymore that strikes me in the same way as that song, and thirdly because some of my uni mates share a mutual appreciation of the song which makes us go a bit nuts when it comes on, and its in my nature to go a bit nuts sometimes!! 

• Borders by The Sunshine Underground. This is just a bloody good song. Its so catchy and whenever it comes on I again go a bit mental. Its my favorite TSU song and I like how the lyrics come across really clearly while the tune is still pretty upbeat and there's a lot of other things going on. 

• When We Wake by Blood Red Shoes. This song is so simple. It has a handful of lyrics that are repeated while the music builds up behind it so it puts across the message of the song really strongly. I think Laura-Mary's voice is so beautiful at the start of the song and its a tone you don't hear much of in the rest of the album as most of it is loud and crazy and guitar filled.

So that's it folks! I hope you enjoyed my post, even if you totally disagree with me! I felt so bad for missing out some of my other favourite songs but feel pretty happy with my choices.

Day 1: My Room

So, 5 things I see in my room every day.

• Pictures of the important people and events in my life. This is one of about 4 areas in my room. People from home, family and uni mates are all up! My favourites are the ones of me and my sister as kids because yo can tell even back then that she was the one that took care of me. How cute!

• iPod. An essential item and one of my favourite possessions. I listen to it nearly every day. It has frequent visits to my handbag.

• My perfume stash because I like to smell tasty! Consists of Daisy by Marc Jacobs, Soap & Glory Original Pink, Live by J-Lo, Purr by Katy Perry (donated from Ness – HAVE to get a full bottle!!) and Tommy Girl by Tommy Hilfiger.

• Laundry basket. Just a reminder of all the thrilling things I can do on a rainy day! Such as today... I hate being a grown up.

• Stash of LUSH products. Extends into a big drawer, and the bathroom… I have lip balms, shower gels, shampoos and conditioners, massage bars, dusting powder, bath bombs, moisturiser and the list could continue.

So, I managed to show you the least cluttered parts of my room.. I love my uni room its so much more me than my room back at my parents, mainly because it has my stuff in, and I don't have to worry about my Mum seeing things. Not that its littered with dildos or anything haha!! I can just put what I want on the walls and do whatever I want with it. 

Anyway, cheers for reading Day 1! Tomorrow will be on my favourite songs. Liv x

Totally Robbed from Fenwick!

So I'm also doing a 30 day blog challenge seeing as I have hardly anything to do over summer except work and let my brain turn to slush! I've chosen a different set of questions though so mutual readers don't get fed up of reading similar posts! My list is from various sources including my own head. I hope people find it interesting, I'll just have to see if I can keep up with it!!

1. 5 things you see in your room everyday
2. 3 of your favourite songs
3. Which TV character reminds you most of yourself
4. Ways to win your heart
5. Bad habits
6. How many bras do you own? What sort of underwear do you choose to wear?
7. Greatest regret
8. What is always in your handbag?
9. What would you say to an ex if you bumped into them?
10. What is your best feature?
11. Greatest turn offs
12. How do you see yourself in 10 years?
13. The ethics of blogging
14. 8 Reasons to hate you
15. 5 things you want to accomplish this year
16. Do you believe in ‘The One’?
17. A song that makes you cry
18. 10 things few people know about you
19. Favourite/most memorable lyrics
20. Explain your wardrobe – dress in two extremes and post pictures
21. Nights out: Heels vs. flats?
22. What would you do with your last £20?
23. If Harry Potter was real what house would you be in and why?
24. Do you think you can tell something about a person by their handwriting?
25. What is your opinion on moustaches?
26. What were you like as a child?
27. 8 things that help you through life
28. Three things you regret about 2012
29. Four things you’ve loved about 2012
30. What would your last meal consist of?

I realise that this initial post isn't that enthralling but I'll try make every post worth reading! Any suggestions of ones to swap/change are also welcome! Cheers! Liv x

Change

I've been thinking about how next year will change me, or rather how much I will have to change.
I really don't want to stop being me. I don't really know how to explain what 'me' is except for that those who know me well will know perhaps more than I do what I'm like. I'm hardly averse to the whole change thing but so much change has happened since I came to uni in every way that I'm craving some form of stability. I'm tired of to'ing and fro'ing between Leeds and Bradford (where my room is frozen in time from my 18 year old occupancy) and I just want to feel settled in one job, one house, with one person, or friends if that doesn't happen!

Change can often be a healthy thing but I'd like something to remain stable for more than a year. I've moved house (lots!), lost and gained friends, lost faith, gained a degree, shopped at Morrisons instead of Asda and many other boring things.

I know that I'll have to be more responsible, more organised, more confident, but I feel hesitant at the thought of becoming more serious. I still want to have fun and I don't want the job to become my life. I suppose that I've wanted to do it for so long that the thought of a 'grown up job' just makes me take stock of how ungrown up I feel.

General things I like:

1. Zipwires
2. Shopping
3. Dressing up and going out
4.  Doing silly voices

Is it me, or does this sound like a typical teacher to you? Maybe I'm just worrying too much as usual.
I don't know if this is a normal concern of PGCE students but I'm feeling less than swish about the whole thing in general. If I can't do it, what else do I do? Is anyone else shitting themselves or is it just me?

Being 'Beautiful'

This is something I've noticed since becoming single and I really hope that I won't be misunderstood because it is a fine line issue.
Hear me out.

Right, so picture the scene, you're out with a friend, just a girl mate, having a laugh, good tunes on just dancing about being stupid and you literally can't lose each other because you have one phone between you. So basically you AREN'T interested in pulling. No thanks, just isn't on the cards. No matter what realm of heaven you have descended from, how long you have spent in the gym, how many times you have won Masterchef, or how many times you've seen (insert cool band name here) backstage and been invited to their mum's for tea.

So there we are, all loving the tunes etc. and quite a good looking guy with two mates comes dancing over, and after telling him my name is 'Olivia' (because people hear Liv as Liz or Lynn - or alternatively go 'what the fuck kind of name is 'Liv'?') which he confuses for Eleanor, and then Elizabeth anyway, I have to write the bloody thing into his phone so he can actually read my name for himself.

This was met with:

1. 'What a pretty name'
2. 'You're so beautiful'
3. 'I bet you've had to reject every guy in here tonight'

I'm not really sure what was going through his head but I can safely say each compliment got worse because each sounded more cheesy and cringeworthy than the last. Coupled with the fact that this guy later announced that he was 26 made it worse because I thought these cheesy chat up lines may have diminished from his repertoire by that age.

I know girls apparently like to be told they're beautiful or whatever but for me, the less I get complimented the more I like a man. If I'm told how beautiful I am, how amazing, awesome, hot, sexy or whatever else within the first 5 minutes, or date, chances are that the guy won't get a second date or even a first one if they've boomed all that out within a first encounter. It freaks me the fuck out all that too much too soon stuff. 

I don't know if it's just me but it just sounds insincere, or if the guy is actually sincere it scares me that they've put me on a pedestal and all I will do is disappoint them. Some guys can be really lovely and play out the balance just right and I certainly think these guys exist, there just becomes a point when it becomes overkill.

Especially when 10 minutes later they ask 'what's your name again'? Twice...

Wishlist Issues and Head Music

Liv's Wishlist:
1) A leather jacket - would look kickass with my denim dress and red lips!

2) A car!

3) The ability to see my sister more than once every three months.

4) Superpowers.

The first 3 can be solved with money, but if I could choose an actual superpower, well I think I'd be quite stuck actually. I mean look at all the problems:

•  Mind reading - paranoia - I could take drugs and get the same effects, and think I had superpowers.
• Shape shifting - I'd never be happy with my figure, and I think I'd forget what I looked like to start with.
• Foresight - you'd never have a surprise again, part of the beauty of life is the mystery! How can you learn from your mistakes if you never make them? Avoiding making mistakes isn't living.
•  Time travel - we've all seen Back to the Future, but we've also seen Doctor Who. Knowing me, I would die, and my body would be lost in Victorian intergalactica.
•  Flying - now that would actually be pretty cool, unless you hit an eagle, or a plane. Unless you were made of titanium, then it could work.
• Infallible memory - I'd constantly have to pretend I was stupid - but it would save on revision. I would save one whole day. Maybe it isn't really worth it?
• Super Flexibility - I'm hypermobile, I'm halfway already! I'm destined for arthritis as it is. Why make it worse?

I think I'd really like it if you could plug earphones into someone's head so that when they remember a song but don't know who its by, you could just plug in and listen. I think it'd bea good way of getting to know someone, and might fill awkward silences. I dunno, I'm rambling, but I do think that would be what I'd choose..

So if someone plugged into my head atm I think they'd hear something like:

• We Are Scientists - You Should Learn - because me and Emily listen to it all the time.
• The Sunshine Underground - Borders - choooon!
• Catfish & The Bottlemen - Collide
• The Music - The People

Thankyou and Goodnight

I keep getting these weird moments where I go all funny about the end of uni.

Like in my last exam whilst I was writing I kept having weird flashbacks of the last 3 years and while I was sitting at our table for the grad ball I just thought how much I didn’t want to lose touch with those I was sat with. I wanted to say so much to each of them about how much they meant to me and about what we’ve each been through but of course its just so cheesy so I thought this would suffice instead. (Please bear in mind I’m tipsy and its after 3am…)

I can’t actually describe what the last 3 years has meant to me but I’d like to say that my biggest regret is that it didn’t last longer. Every single person I’ve met, without exception has been a privilege to meet and I wish everyone the greatest success in whatever they decide to do, even if they haven’t graduated yet!! (ahem Rosie – and of course others!) This has hands down been the best three years of my life and I have learned so much about myself. There have been major ups, major downs, major stresses and major hangovers but thankyou so much to every single person who listened, laughed with and at me, passed me tissues when the old ones got filled with snot, and took pictures of the best moments, and created them with me. I don’t regret meeting a soul, I truly mean that. Life’s too short for petty arguments, ain’t nobody got time fo’dat!

I suppose that I’ve been truly myself with my uni friends which I can’t say I feel is possible in all other areas of my life. There’s sometimes that weird thing where people just don’t get you which I sometimes think people feel like with me.

However, although I don’t really know how others perceive me, I hope that my sort of existence in univille has been of at least a little importance for some people. Thanks so much to everyone for making my time at uni so memorable and I hope to God you don’t end up just another face on Facebook. I love you lot.

And I’m going to bed now. Word vomit terminated.